Still Leaving
Walk away there’s nothing left here of me • You and I were through a long time ago • Walk away for the last time I won’t make a scene • Act like I care Walk away I won’t try to save you • Bear your cross or try to hide your shame • Walk away from the me that ails you • Walk away baby Have you found your demons? • Have you looked inside enough to see them? • Do you miss me when the day starts sleeping? • Do you wonder if I’m still leaving? You were gone so long I thought I lost you • You came back so wrong I didn’t even want you • You were a mess and you knew it • I confess I could see you right through it Have you found your demons? • Have you looked inside enough to see them? • Do you miss me when the day starts sleeping? • Do you wonder if I’m still leaving? I don’t think you even came back from there • Never with your old authentic self • I don’t think you understand what you left here • I don’t think you ever will I think you’re sorry as any fool would be • I think you’re sorry for yourself not me • I think we lie to ourselves daily • I think we’ve seen to many movies Have you found your demons? • Have you looked inside enough to see them? • Do you miss me when the day starts sleeping? • Do you wonder if I’m still leaving?
I rode my bike all the way down town • I ran ten miles and turned back around • I made a parachute so I could fly • Went under cover for the FBI • I won the contest I made the grade • I did it all but I’m still the same I’m still the same girl you didn’t love • I’m still the same girl you didn’t want • I’m still the same girl you didn’t choose • I’m still the same girl who still wants you I saddled up on a horse and road • Through rugged wild on my very own • I volunteered for a worthy cause • And found a cure when all the hope was lost • I paid off my credit cards • Now I’m debt free • One would think you’d be crazy bout’ me • But I’m I’m still the same girl you didn’t love • I’m still the same girl you didn’t want • I’m still the same girl you didn’t choose • I’m still the same girl who still wants you I’m not too sure • I think I placed you • Way too High • Like a pillar in the sky I won ribbons at the county fair • I took first place with time to spare • I paved this road with my two hands • And built this house after I cleared the land • I broke the tie I won the game • I did it all but I’m still the same I’m still the same girl you didn’t love • I’m still the same girl you didn’t want • I’m still the same girl you didn’t choose • I’m still the same girl who still wants you
I was the one to walk away • I was the one to say you are rejected You took a chance but the risk was mine • I needed love I needed to be wanted It was me on the floor and you on the ceiling • Stupid songs that made me feel like I was pretty • And well, you don’t know me at all • You don’t know me at all Truth becomes a distance and rightfully so • Truth has made me bleed and now I lay down alone • Truth has set you free form me I lay down alone It was me on the floor and you on the ceiling • Stupid songs that made me feel like I was pretty • Feel like I was pretty Can’t find the penny in the water • Don’t like to hold my breath and wonder • I lie down in my other world • Where I am some other girl • Maybe I will find you there There is no safety net where I have fallen • I don’t find regret inside a face that is hardened Truth becomes a distance and rightfully so • Truth has made me bleed and now I lay down alone It was me on the floor • You don’t remember • Stupid songs • You don’t remember • You don’t know me all
Saw you in line waiting to get in • Saw you at the bar you’d been drinking again • You put yoru hand on my side • move the hair from my eyes • I think I made you forget what you left behind Oh she follows you, now she follows me • She has control of the air that you breathe • But I’ll accept her if you will have me • Oh she follows you now she is following me I’ve been on the other side baby • Waved goodbye at the end of the ride • So I’m well aware of what you’re doing to me • I’m well aware of the attention you need Oh she follows you, now she follows me • She has control of the air you breathe • But I’ll accept her if you will have me • Oh she follows you now she is following me You gimmee gimme gimme take it away • You give me hope and then you take it away • It takes me three days to recover every night that you stay Oh she follows you, now she follows me • She has control of the air that you breathe • But I’ll accept her if you will have me • Oh she follows you now she is following me I’ll give you space all the room that you need • I’ll even step back and let you come to me • Step back and let you follow me • Why don’t you follow me? • Go ahead and follow me No thanks I don’t need your pity • No thanks I can make it on my own • This time I think I’m ready • I don’t need yoru hand to hold You might look at me tomorrow on the street as we pass • You might look and see me smile and think that I’m not sad • But I will recognize your beauty all the way home • I will recognize your beauty all the way home I don’t need your hand to hold Hey, how’s the family? • So glad I never have to see them again • This time I’m holding steady • Your face your voice won’t suck me in You might look at me tomorrow on the street as we pass • You might look and see me smile and think that I’m not sad • But I will recognize your beauty all the way home • I will recognize your beauty all the way home I don’t need your hand to hold My jealous heart wonders where you are, but I keep going • It’s been so long, and you’re still wrong or at least I’m hoping • I didn’t make a mistake I feel a little lost here I don’t need your hand to hold
Called him Sunday morning at two thirty • Even though I didn’t know what to say I don’t have him figured out • I’m sitting here in all my doubt • Trying hard to think of words to say He said you feel right You feel right • But I don’t know what that means • He said you feel right You feel right • But he says a lot of things When he answered I had hoped • He’d offer me a little bit • Of sympathy and help me on our way All I wanted him to say • Is that he was just so afraid • And that is why he ran away from me He said you feel right You feel right • But I don’t know what that means • He said you feel right You feel right • But he says a lot of things • Says a lot of things He felt just like a stranger in the middle of the night • I stripped myself of all my pride hoping he’d be kind • I don’t know no, no one knows how the story goes • I guess in time we’ll see We’ll see yeah, what he means to me • He said you feel right You feel right • But he says a lot of things He spent the night I let him stay • Inside my bed I let him stay • Now I’m not sure how to draw this line I’m either stupid or I’m safe • I’ll risk the pain, I’ll walk the plank • Just to have him stay He said you feel right You feel right • But I don’t know what that means • He said you feel right • You feel right
Thought I enjoyed talking to you today • There’s been a few painful effects I cannot take I shouldn’t have asked you if you were seeing someone else • I shouldn’t have argued when you said you wouldn’t tell • Now I realize I have a long way to go • Before I can handle what I know • There is nothing left to say • Northing left to say • After today please don’t call, don’t call me again • If in a few months you want ot know how I am Do me a favor and call one of my friends • And make sure you tell them that I can’t handle this Now I realize I have a long way to go • Before I can handle what I know • There is nothing left to say • Northing left to say after today I’ve been here before • But never this long and never this hard I can say I’m wrong But not enough times to change your mind I have a long way • I have a long way • I have a long way to go • I have a long way to go I’m truly glad that you’re so happy • I hope your happiness continues on I still want it the way that it used to be • I still want there to be a you and me Now I realize I have a long way to go • Before I can handle what I know • There is nothing left to say • Nothing left to say after today
Every time we get together it’s always the same thing • I dance around you, you stumble and then you blame me For sorrow, for feeling betrayed • For panic, for losing your way Don’t want to carry this long, but I want you with me • I get so tired of it all the ways you punish me For sorrow, for feeling betrayed • For panic, for losing your way Losing your way I wasn’t lonely before I met you • Now I’d go back through every door just to forget you And your sorrow, your feeling betrayed • Your panic, your losing your way This will suffice for tonight, tomorrow and the times I have felt alone • I’ve been running down these hills • trying hard to figure out what I’ve been running from I’ve been running down these hills • I’ve been using all of my heart I’ve been trying way too hard • Just to end up where I start I ask you how, how are you so satisfied while I am constantly afraid this is ruining my life? • Why is it me that you accuse? • You don’t witness you assume • Well I am not your child I’ve been running down these hills • I’ve been using all of my heart I’ve been trying way too hard • Just to end up where I start No shouting • No chasing me around • No crying • I’m going to lose you in this crowd • No chances to say what you haven’t said • No glances back up to where I’ve been I’ve been running down hills of mourning all these years • All these years I’ve seen your ghosts and I tell each one goodbye • I’ll be fine here • Anger seeps into the bed and compassion turns her head to see what is happening to me I’ve been running down these hills • I’ve been using all of my heart • I’ve been trying way too hard • Just to end up where I start
Every other day you find a reason to complain • About how you’ve been cheated how I’ve let you down again I’ve let you down again Every other day there’s another look across your face • Another talk, another threat, another put me in my place You put me in my place • It was a fine affair, but I lost the dress • It was a lovely time, but it didn’t last I’m the one who breaks your heart and carries it around • I’m the one who was perfect just until you found me out Until you found me out • It was a fine affair, but I lost the dress • It was a lovely time, but it didn’t last So you think I wanna and you think I’m gonna • yeah you think I’m gonna have yoru baby Let me tell you just a little something • Let me tell you just a little something • You’re so far off the mark it’s frightening I hear the same apology you’re angry with yourself • no, I don’t deserve this and now I want you out I put you in your place • It was a fine affair, but I lost the dress • It was a lovely time, but it didn’t last
Let me start by saying this • Everyday you are missed • I am sad for what I’ve lost • But I’m well aware what the keeping you cost I decided that I’m not gonna fight • Not gonna fight it anymore no no no • I decided that I’m not gonna fight • Fight it anymore no no no I am watching my every step • To see if I have left you yet • But I don’t hope and I don’t pray • That you’ll come around cause I rememer the pain I decided that I’m not gonna fight • Not gonna fight it anymore no no no • I decided that I’m not gonna fight • Fight it anymore no no no I wish I were sweet • I wish you every little thing you could need • I’ve forgiven you • Now please forgive me • And we will walk away finally It’s strange how you show up • In my voice and in my thoughts • After all this time • All this space • There is part of you that I can’t replace
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